Ray Vecchio wasn't first on anybody's list to head up the
operation, but he was on everybody's list of possible candidates. The operation
being to take down Frank Zuko once and for all, Ray Vecchio's name had to come up. The best reason to put
Detective Vecchio in charge was also the best reason
to keep him out of it - there was no way Vecchio
could be objective. In the end, those who wanted Zuko
put away more than they cared about protocol were the ones that won out.
For five
weeks Ray co-ordinated, evaluated, scheduled,
plotted, advised and directed. He never
saw Zuko face to face. All he did was to direct the working teams
and that was more than enough to occupy his whole mind. His body was only along
for the ride. Nobody particularly noticed that he didn't sleep much - every few
hours there was some detail of the operation to be dealt with. Anybody who
would have been paying attention would have observed that he didn't eat much either
.Mostly he forgot to eat and when he did remember, he couldn't be bothered to take the
time.
Everybody
expected that with Vecchio in charge, the Mountie would also help out. Nobody thought he'd be allowed
direct access to Zuko, but could have helped out with
his remarkable intelligence. Nobody, least of all the Mountie
himself, could have predicted that these would be the very weeks that Fraser
had to report back to
When five
weeks were over, Frank Zuko was behind bars and Ray Vecchio was exhausted. And nobody was particularly
surprised at that.
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Just
before he left for
"The
first thing you do when you come back to Chicago, Benito, is to come to this
house," she directed.
"Of
course, Mrs. Vecchio . . ."
"You
call me 'Ma', Benito."
"Of course . . . Ma. I'll come get Diefenbaker right away."
Ma Vecchio muttered in Italian under her breath before
resuming.
"You'll
come here to be fed. I'll let you and the wolf go home when I'm satisfied
you've made up for the way they'll be starving you up there."
Resistance
was futile.
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Fraser
arrived back at the house on a Tuesday night.
Ray ordered the final arrest of Frank Zuko
three hours later. Nobody thought Ray planned it that way, but everybody
thought there must be some greater power that arranged the timing.
When Ray
got home, he didn't actually come into the house right away. He turned the key
in the front door with a smooth practiced motion - it was the same key in the
same lock ever since he had been a child. After easing the door open, he
advanced only until he was just inside the door frame and paused. Letting out a
groan, he leaned heavily against the side of the doorframe, and just stood
there. Sounds and smells from inside the house washed over him. He was home. He
was tired - so tired that it was going to be an effort to force himself through the doorway and into the house. Through the
fog of fatigue, concentrating on every slow step, he made his way up the stairs
towards his bedroom. Yes, everybody was waiting for him to come into the
kitchen. Hopefully, nobody would begrudge him a bit of quiet time alone.
Everybody
in the kitchen heard the front door open and paused what he or she was doing to
register that Ray had come home. It had to be Ray,
everybody else who could be expected was already there: Ma, Francesca and Maria
were cooking, Tony and
Fraser, sitting side by side at the kitchen table, were tasting their
wares. Tony and Maria's children were
chasing each other around and table, ducking in and about the legs of the
tables, chairs and their human occupants. Diefenbaker was sitting hopefully between
Tony and Fraser to catch whatever anybody might let fall. For all that they
were engrossed in their own doings, everybody was aware that Ray might arrive
soon.
When they
heard him come in, everybody thought Ray would come into the kitchen but when
that didn't happen, Francesca was the first to get up and head out of the
kitchen to go get him.
Ma called
her back. "Let him alone, cara.
He might just want to be alone."
Nobody
dared contravene her dictate except, strangely, Fraser, who said. "Maybe
you could make up a plate, Ma, and I'll just take it up to him."
"I
guess you could leave it outside his door," said Maria, doubtfully. She
was expecting her mother to tell scold Fraser, insisting that he leave Ray
alone. Fearing that Fraser's feelings might be hurt, she thought she was
offering a way that both Fraser and her mother could have their own way.
Everybody
was surprised when Ma said, "Very well, Benito."
Without
another word, she filled a dinner plate from a variety of pots on the stove and
handed it to the Mountie. Fraser scooped up a fork,
knife and napkin from the pile of items waiting on the kitchen table for
conveyance to the dining room and headed out of the kitchen.
"I
thought you said everybody should leave him alone," protested Tony.
"Not
everybody," said Ma.
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Fraser
rapped on the closed door to Ray's bedroom. "It's me," he called.
From
behind the door came a grunted response that had the cadence of "Come
in".
"I
can't. I don't have a free hand. I'm sorry, Ray, you'll have to open the
door."
The man
that opened the bedroom door was bleary-eyed and slumped. To Fraser he looked
shrunken, as though the exertion of the past weeks had drained him of actual
body mass as well as energy. Ray was already in pajamas and his bed was
rumpled.
"Go
back to bed, Ray. I'll just leave this here in case you want it later."
Fraser set the plate and cutlery down on Ray's bedside table.
He turned
to leave, but Ray said, "No, stay. I wouldn't mind some company, but the
family would be too much to handle right now." The detective managed a
weak smile as he slid back between the covers and pulled his blanket up to his
chin.
Fraser
sat down on the end of the bed, rather than on any of the chairs in the
bedroom. Ray wrinkled his forehead in puzzlement at this but didn't say anything.
"Was
it very hard on you?" Fraser asked.
Ray
thought over the question before answering. "If you mean
because of Irene, no. That part almost felt good - I was avenging her,
you know. I think what was really tough was knowing
that nobody really expected me to be able to pull this off."
"But
you did pull it off. You should be very proud."
"I
guess I am. Everybody's happy as clams. You ought to see them, Fraser."
"I
mean you, Ray. Aren't you proud of yourself?"
Ray
turned over on his side and pulled his blanket up higher, up to the level of
his ear. "I don't know what I'm feeling. Except tired.
I'm too tired to feel anything."
Fraser
inched closer along the bed toward Ray's head. "When I was in the
hospital, after you shot me, I didn't know what I was feeling. You were there
for me, Ray. You told me that giving in to
"Yeah,
I did say that," Ray muffled into his pillow.
"I'm
here to tell you the opposite, Ray. That operation couldn't have been
successfully concluded by just anybody. It needed your knowledge of Zuko and your dedication. I think . . . I think . . .Irene can rest easier knowing you've brought Frank to
justice."
Ray
shifted and craned his neck towards his friend without actually turning over.
"You really think that?"
"Yes,
Ray. I do," the Mountie said, softly. "You
did it all within the confines of the law. You could have had Zuko on murder charges right after the shooting, but you
refrained. You waited. If you can't be proud of yourself, I can be proud of you
enough for the both of us. You are . . ." Fraser paused.
"What
am I, Benny?"
"A remarkable man. A good and thoughtful man," Fraser said, after a
while.
Fraser
was sitting close enough to touch Ray's head. He reached out his hand and
stroked Ray's hair. When Ray did not protest,
the Mountie continued, running his fingertips around
the one of Ray's ears that was facing upwards, the other ear being dug into his
pillow.
Ray let
out a little sigh and eased his eyes closed. "That feels nice," he
said, simply, in a childlike voice.
Fraser continued
patting him for a few more minutes, then lowered his face close to Ray's and
kissed him gently on the cheek.
"Nice," Ray whispered, his eyes still closed.
"I've
been worried about you, Ray. About how you would hold
up."
"I'm
just tired, Benny."
"Shall
I go now, then, and let you sleep?"
Ray
rolled over on his back and looked Fraser in the face. "Will you stay with
me until I fall asleep?"
"No,
Ray."
Ray was
too tired to physically show the shock these words made him feel. He just
opened his eyes wide and stared at the Mountie.
"I'll
sit here while you fall asleep and stay while you're sleeping. I'm not leaving
you, Ray."
"Then,
kiss me again, Benny."
Fraser
did, this time full on Ray's lips.
"That's
nice," Ray said. "I'm so tired. I just want to sleep a little and
when I wake up you'll still be here."
"I
promise," vowed Fraser.
"And
we'll do more about this. When I'm not so tired."
"When
you're not so tired, Ray. I can wait."
End